This my tumblr, I post about whatever is on my mind or important in my life. There isn't any real reason for this other than it's tumblr.
I honestly don’t know what I’m posting about. I don’t know and I do not care. All I do know is that I am fed up with everything about my life. Honestly, depression isn’t all that bad once you accept it, but cutting oneself seems like a cheap release. It hasn’t changed the way I feel, and I don’t think it will. I feel like that no matter what I do, I’ll feel this way until I die.
But that’s the answer, isn’t it? The option no one ever brings up, as a solution, is death. Everyone talks about how horrible death is, but is it really that horrible? It accepts everyone and anyone. Death doesn’t care about the worries of this world, or even the pain. So, if it ends all of that, why put it off?
I honestly don’t know why I do any more.
I know it’s a little early, but I’m already starting on my New Years resolution because, as of now, I really have no idea what I’ll be doing or where I’ll be in a few months.
With everything that’s happened in the last semester I could be dropping out of school in order to enlist in the US Army, or I could continue my education at Georgia Southern and eventually commission as a 2nd Lt.
Either way I need to start bettering myself and I don’t see way I should wait. I mean, the entire point in a New Years resolution is better yourself and to change things about yourself that only hold you back from achieving your true potential and if you wait until the first of every year to make changes, what are you really doing? If you really want to see a change, stop waiting and act. So that’s what I’m doing. Hopefully it all works out, but, even if it doesn’t, at least I won’t have any regrets.